Pictures

Hey guys I have a bunch new pictures to post. I hope you don't mind me always posting pictures, I just think it's cool to see the growth of my little girl and how fast she is growing up. :) I have this cute little video that is 1 minute long but can't figure out how to upload it.....I wish I could. Anyways my first half week back to work was so hard. I'm really dreading tomorrow becuase I have to be gone for a full week instead of just 3 days. I miss my little girl sooooooo much!!!! Thursday she didn't even want to look at me when I got to my mom's to pick her up....ahhhhh. I'm going to think positive though, hopefully that will help the weekends get here faster. I enjoyed being with her all week. She is such a doll. My mom took some picture for me and I'm going to post them too, she is adorable. :)
I took this on Friday after her nap


Mom did these






This was Wednesday see she missed her mom


Tuesday morning!!!

Just a test video

I've been trying to upload a video on photobucket but its taking forever, if anyone knows what to do let me know. This one was only 17 seconds. The one i'm trying is 1 minute long....this is nothing compared to what I have!! :(

Back to work I go....

I would like to tell you how horrible work was today and how miserable I was and how it didn't go fast enough....but then that would be a lie.
It actually wasn't so bad, the hard part was walking out the door and having to say goodbye to my sweet baby as she fell back to sleep in her crib. Yes I was in tears, yes I came back a couple times, yes it was super hard, yes I even cried in front of my boss when I walked in.....but it did get better. I can't even explain to you how much in love I am with this small little person. I just can't imagine working and not seeing her, not comforting her when she cries, not feed her when she is hungry, or rock her when she is not feeling well. It kills me inside....BUT
I go to work with a fake face, with a smile on my face pretending it doesn't matter, but in truth it really hurts me. I have work that keeps me busy and thats nice, I have friends whom I love to talk to and see but when it all comes down to it the one thing I really need throughout the day is my baby Addyson in my arms. It will get better and I will continue going to work pretending that life is great....because that's how I am. God knows my heart and my desire and maybe one day I can stay home with her, but for now I will do what I have to do with a smile and a wave and know that we are making a future for our daughter.
She cried for a couple hours this morning and wouldn't take her bottle, it hurt me to hear that, but hopefully she will get better as time goes on. She just needed her momma and her momma just needed her.
Tomorrow I'm working 7:30-2:30, the good thing is that I was given permission to work a minimum of 32 hours.....so as long as I get that many I'm good. I just have to make sure I keep my work up and do my best. I still get vacation because that is still considered full time. It's not so bad I guess.
Thats my first day, it went by fast and in the end it felt so nice to see my daughter. Maybe day 2 will be better.

Oh Addyson is 12 weeks today it's been a wonderful and exciting 12 weeks. God is good

Oh I love her so much!!!!!!

I couldn't get her to smile
She is so cute on camera!
Playing while momma was cleaning
Me and Addyson (she is sucking in her cheeks)

My cutie pie

She likes to eat her clothes....
Stephen laid her down to play and she fell asleep after blowing millions of bubbles!

Kisses

I've taught Addyson to do the sweetest thing. I hold her up to my cheek and say "give mommy a kiss" and she will open up her mouth and put it against my cheek. It's so cute. She probably doesn't know what she is doing, but I open my mouth and say "give mommy a kiss", and she mimicks me. It's so adorable. She is mostly happy ALL the time, on the occassion when she is really sleepy she will scream and fight sleep but for the most part she is absolutely wonderful. She still hates "tummy time" but that's alright, she likes being on her back and her little chair. She also eats her shirt, and her little stuffed animal. It's so cute. She will fall asleep with her tummy showing or her arms wrapped around her teddy bear. I'm in heaven when I watch her.
Our realtor is going to show us a couple houses in a neighborhood by my parents next week, that would be so awesome if it worked out especially with me having to go back to work, we would be so close and wouldn't have to really go out of our way to drop Addyson off. Other than that things are good. I'm still having a horrible time with this whole going back to work. I feel like I cry about it everyday. It just sucks.

New Hair cut

New mommy/back to work hair cut! Oh and just because I have the cutest little girl in the whole entire world! :)

Update and Pictures

Hey everyone I finally have some more pictures to put up, I've slacked some :(
Nothing really new, enjoying the time I have with Addyson before going back to work. She has been laughing and smiling a lot lately. She has grown so much!!! We are totally insanely crazy about her. Pray for me, I'm having a hard time getting ready to go back to work, I'm so miserable over it.....I don't know how I'm going to leave this precious baby every day. I'm praying that I won't have to do this for that much longer. I go back next Wednesday the 15th. Time is so short and it went by way too fast.
We are currently seeking a house. We found one we are interested in so we will see how that goes. It will need new carpet, new tile, and a new paint job on the inside ( i was already going to paint any house we get) anyways its a possibility and I'm all up for updating it, it would be fun. I'm really excited, I am praying it works out. God has that house for us, it's just finding it that matters. Stephen is loving his new job, he works for AT&T now. It's different but has the potential for me to stay home!!! Whoo hoo!! We stayed at my parents house last week while they were out of town, I kept an eye on the boys. We got back and Addyson's sleep schedule was thrown way off that it has been difficult the last couple days. Sunday night she woke at 11pm, 1am, 3am, 6am, 8am and 12pm. I was so tired by the end of that night.
Alright well I'm tired and i need to make a grocery list for tomorrow. Oh and I'm getting my hair cut short tomorrow. I'm excited. :)
Here are some pictures to enjoy.
My parents went to Missouri and brought back this hat that turned into different shapes. She is so cute with it on.






2 1/2 Months
After bath time

New blogger baby

Okay so a friend of my sister and mine just found out that they are going to be blessed with a baby! So if you get a chance check her blog out and add her because I'm sure she will be updating quite frequently. I just love watching baby blogs.
http://www.jennyphillips.blogspot.com/

Isn't this precious????

What is love??

What is love?

When you wake up in the morning look into your childs crib see her smiling up at you and you have this feeling overwhelm you, that is love.

When you get woken up at 2 am by a crying baby and you don't think about the sleep you are losing but the time you are gaining with your child even if it's for 2o minutes, that is love.

When your child is screaming and screaming and her face is red with tears streaming down her cheeks and your heart breaks because all you want to do is make it better, that is love.

When you laugh and your child laughs back and makes you laugh with their laughter until tears are coming out of your eyes, that is love.

When your child falls asleep on your chest with their hands and feet sprawled out on you and you forget about the housework or even taking a shower and just think of how special that one moment is, that is love.

When you take the time out of your day and just talk to your child just to hear them coo back to you not caring that you don't understand them but knowing you have that mommy daughter connection, that is love.

When your heart swells with pride everytime someone tells you how beautiful your child is, that is love.

When you leave your child and go somewhere only to hurry up and come back becuase you miss the warmth of your child in your arms, that is love.

Love, love is what I have for Addyson, she is a delight to me, she makes me smile when I am sad, she makes me laugh when I'm tired and she makes all right in the world when she is in my arms. I have so much love for her, more love than I could ever imagine. God has blessed me over and abundently and I thank Him every day for this beautiful blessing He has given Stephen and I. Love, what could be better than this????

Laughter

Tonight I was playing with Addyson, I was laughing really hard and bringing her close to my face. She started laughing, her first real noise laugh. It was soooooo cute, it made me laugh harder which in turn made her laugh harder and make louder noise. It was adorable. Stephen got the video camera out and what do you know she wouldn't do it again. I just loved it!!!! I had to report her first real noise making laugh, I can't wait to hear and see it again.

10 Weeks Old

Our little girl is 10 weeks today, crazy how it's been 10 weeks. She is soo much fun, she smiles and laughs (with no sound) and she talks soo much. I just love talking with her. Here are some pictures, it's been busy so I'll update later, I was told I needed to get some pictures out there. :) I hope everyone is having a great week.